Do you still remember this?
I’m just in a nostalgic mood today, maybe brought about by the rains outside (this is a late post, last Friday pa ‘to dapat). I remember that during rainy days when school was called off, I would immediately bring out my books – Hardy Boys, Bobbsey Twins, Nancy Drew and my most fave, Choose Your Own Adventure. It’s my most favorite because it was an easy, short read. I get a kick reading and re-reading the plot, choosing a different option every time.
Choose Your Own Adventure is a series of children’s gamebooks where each story is written from a second-person point of view, with the reader assuming the role of the protagonist and making choices that determine the main character’s actions and the plot’s outcome.
And today, I can’t help but think about this book and some what-ifs. Like what if I chose a different direction at a particular point in my life, what would have been the outcome? Will I be a different person because of it? Will I be enjoying the same things now or would I be more problematic facing a different set of challenges?
I know that I should not dwell on the past and regret the decisions I’ve made, but can I, just for a moment reminisce and take a different path from what I’ve chosen before? I’ve listed independent crossroads below, I just want to let my imagination run wild and see where it will take me…
Crossroad: Take up Law after college rather than work
Outcome: I’d be a lawyer in 2004, probably still working in the same law firm who took me in while I was still reviewing (I’m loyal like that). Probably married to another lawyer who I’ve met in law school. Maybe with 1 kid living in a condo.
Crossroad: Study MBA in the US in 2002
Outcome: I’d probably be working in the US right now at a publishing company or in a magazine. Anywhere as long as it involves writing/ proofreading. Maybe just got married to a foreigner banker, no kid yet but with a dog living in an apartment in the city.
Crossroad: Got back with an old flame
Outcome: Married to him with 2 going on 3 kids, living not in the Philippines. WAHM while he works a computer-related job. I’d probably be blogging and earning from it sharing my life as an expat hahaha…or we’d probably be living here because he’s already playing pro basketball (if he got serious to his sports)
Crossroad: Did not come back to 5J
Outcome: With own business – could be online or food or serious with events coordination. Still blogging but maybe focused on the wedding industry. In terms of personal life, probably same as my life now.
Crossroad: Stayed single
Outcome: Traveling, traveling, traveling hahaha
Every time I type a crossroad, scenes are played out in my mind and I smile. It’s actually fun doing this…and yes, a bit sad as well. It’s fun because you get to think of another way your life may have panned out. It’s sad because I know that in some of the crossroads above are missed opportunities I could no longer get back.
Oh well, that’s life. Don’t get me wrong though, it’s not that I’m not happy with how things turned out for me now. In some ways I know it could be better. But I also know that I’m blessed.
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